when theres nothing left and everything has been raped from you ,,,,what do u do then where u dont feel anything anymore your just there,, and even terrible things happen and you just dont feel anything the times when you know you should cry but dont when theres a time to smile but cant i have built a wall and cant knock the fucking shit down when all i can do is,, sit and wait but for what ,,, i dont know my mind is clutterd,, with thoughts,, i dont know what the fuck to do anymore im quite tierd of worthless fuckers telling me it gets better when everyday was seems to be the worst day of my life things dont get better ,,, im still here so im trying but whats there to look forward to when i know shits still going to fuckin happen ,,,, i have lost the will to do the things i live for,,, and thats what scares me,,,, i just dont fucking know any more,, . i will never fake a smile i will never make myself cry ,,, i do something or be something im not right now,, is there any advice,, you can possible give me,, no one will understand me,, and i never want then to but i cant keep living as a space wasted shit fuck forever |