did u ever lose faith in yourself? in your abilities? did u “know” u were going to make it? cause being sure makes it a lot easier i guess. when did u decide that u wanted to become a rock star?(age) how would u deal with failure? i can’t stop wondering if there r many other “Marilyn Manson”s out there that just didn’t make it, and the possibility that u could be one of them just drives me crazy, i mean even amongst equals or think-alikes’ only the best(or most lucky) will rise above, so basically by making it as a rock star u just pushed down a lot of people that r like u cause it’s a competitive business even amongst your own “species”, how many ideas would have gone to waste if u hadn’t succeeded… (and this is not only about your case, there could be a Jesus out there that no one ever discovered, a savior who got unlucky, it’s all about fame anyway and if people don’t know u then u r nothing, it’s all about influence, everything is the same in nature and we’re all just planets sucking all the smaller ones into our atmosphere, and maybe the biggest will make a sun of itself and give life and make everyone else revolve and evolve around it, u can call it inspiration or faith if u want, we all have a different world inside our heads but it’s only real if we can “download” that world into other peoples heads, cause otherwise my death will be the end of my world but through works of art or anything man creates he can multiply his world-self, thus i see art as sperm, i just get fucked each time i listen to music or read a book, so we must find ourselves like Nietzsche stated…or maybe stop reading books like he did!) so what would u do if u hadn’t made it? or maybe that just wasn’t a possibility-wasn’t an option, i think it was Freddie Mercury who said that u can’t prepare for failure cause then u’ll fail(that’s not an exact quote), was it “all or nothing”? if u weren’t a rock star would i be ordering MacDonalds from u? would u have a job? what would it be? i can’t help wondering but i guess things can only turn out the way they did… i believe in determinism (but at the same time in free will which sounds somewhat strange), do u? (sorry for my English, it’s my second language..).
irrelative-more about planets: but even if i’m a meteorite-fan, maybe if i was big enough i could make a really “deep impact” on a planet-idol after the initial burning-excitement of getting to know it-demystify him, like a fan with a gun really made a deep impact on the life of John Lennon (though i shouldn’t joke about that and i’m not, and no this is not a death threat that u can add to your collection).
could u clarify comment.. criticism,interpretation, i think i would like to commend him, not TO him, can u trust a man who doesn't introduse himself by his real name? or who by that name implies the duality of his character? don't mind me i'm just joking, or maybe i'm just being a smart-ass, but asses can see angels too..
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